February 2012
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Does it ever end?
ED: Don't eat.
Me: I can just eat a reasonable, healthy portion.
ED: If you're going to eat, you might as well binge. And You know you don't want to do that.
Me: I can just eat half the portion.
ED: You'll still be weak. You are stronger than your hunger. You will lose weight, and you will be lovely.
Me: Okay.
Feb 22nd
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Feb 22nd
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Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. This should be...
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Feb 22nd
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I think he's a keeper:)
James: Why do you have to be so attractive?!
Me: Why do you have to be so delusional?!
James: Fucking stop!!! Everyone agrees! I don't like introducing you to my friends cause they're all attracted to you. You are seriously the most beautiful girl ever. And I hate when you deny it.
Feb 22nd
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if im worth it, reblog this
Feb 22nd
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Holy poop so much has gone on.
i’m going to ask James out on thursday. wish me luck?  my moods are all over the place tonight and i have no idea how to feel.  i’m really scared about lent. i don’t know if i’m ready to move forward in my faith. prayers please? i cut on my thigh yesterday for the first time. hopefully they won’t scar, because they’d definitely be visible in a bathing suit.  ...
Feb 22nd
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Lent. I really need help and prayers. Please:)
Here are my goals. I feel like I’m aiming too high. But I guess I can give it a try.  Give up:  Cutting Junk food Goals:  Adoration every Wednesday  Mass every Sunday Read my Bible once a day  Pray  I’m really hoping to make it back to my faith this lent. I need a kickstart. Please please pray. I need this so bad. 
Feb 21st
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If it's socially unacceptable for me to call you...
Feb 20th
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Feb 20th
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1/2 Cup Raspberries for 32 Calories? Yes please!
Feb 20th
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Feb 19th
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Feb 19th
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Any advice on what to say to a friend whose...
I have no clue how to deal with this situation:/
Feb 18th
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Feb 17th
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Feb 17th
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Wow. Wow. Wow. Wow. Fuck.
My ex best friend wrote a letter to my mom telling her that I’m not eating properly and that I’m hurting myself. I’m so confused. I’m mad and scared and relieved. I’m mad for way too many reasons. I’m relieved because my mom took it really well. and I’m scared cause she wants me to see a new therapist that specializes in eating disorders.  I think I...
Feb 17th
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If she only knew.
Mom: hey honey how was your day?
Me: pretty good. I was doing really good at eating healthy until we watched a movie. then i pigged out.
Mom: Well i want to make sure you're not obsessing about food because that can lead to bad things.
Me: Don't worry mom. I just want to be healthier.
Feb 17th
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Watching Lizzie Mcguire. like a BOSS.
Feb 16th
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I don’t think when I do it.
 I suppose that’s partly the point. I only feel. It allows my mind to go blank, and the most important of my senses to focus. Focus on how it feels; each individual skin cell splitting, releasing emotional freedom in the form of the color red. Allows me to focus on how the dull metal can still fumble it’s way through my skin, until it’s found what it was looking for. Focus on predicting how...
Feb 16th
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So. Should I binge then purge (purge for the first...
I really want to binge and purge. But I’m scared to do it. 
Feb 15th
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Feb 15th
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Wait... Why do I even care what you want me to do...
Me: So... what do you want me to tell people when they ask me how you are? or why we haven't talked, or why we aren't friends anymore?
Her: *no response*
Me: *thinking to myself* I can't believe I'm letting you CONTINUE to "rule" me. You're not my fucking boss and I can tell people what I want. Yeah. Suck it.
Feb 15th
Anonymous asked: Don't cut. Please don't cut. Be strong. please.
Feb 15th
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Jeeze mom. Go to bed already so I can cut. Please...
Feb 15th
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Somehow, I feel like my therapist knowing I cut...
Feb 15th
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Feb 15th
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What book should I read: We Need to Talk About...
Feb 14th
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I'm questioning whether I'd rather eat, or see my...
Feb 14th
Who needs a boyfriend when I have Netflix?
Feb 14th
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themudbloods: THAT’S SO RAVEN IS NOT ON NETFLIX ANYMORE????? im DONE i was sooo disappointed when i found that out:( 
Feb 14th
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I'm kind of obsessed with Gossip Girl. Thank God...
Feb 14th
bulletsforbrains: when your old scars or scabs start to itch…it’s like they’re asking you to cut again
Feb 14th
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Feb 13th
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Feb 13th
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I've never felt as empty as i do right now. :(
Feb 13th
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I feel like the only teenager in the world who has...
im such a weirdo. 
Feb 13th
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I want really sharp razors. Or anything super...
Feb 13th
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Anonymous asked: Saw your post I don't know much about this stuff but don't go hurting yourself
Feb 12th
Anonymous asked: You don't know me but I love you. Please be strong <3
Feb 12th
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I'm really triggered. No one's home. And my best...
Feb 12th
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YES.
Therapist: Cutting becomes "the only way" for people. And that's why it's so difficult. Because it causes such an internal conflict. You're coping the only way you know how, but at a price. You're living your life as someone you've grown to hate.
Feb 12th
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put a ✉ in my ask and i will turn my iPod on...
muster-the-rohirrim: Yeah why not.
Feb 12th
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Feb 12th
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Feb 12th
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I want to feel fragile, and frail, and lovely. I...
Feb 12th
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the person I reblogged this has a blog worth...
Feb 11th
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Feb 11th
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ACT's this morning. Dad wants me to have a big...
Feb 11th
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I'm about to binge. Help?
Feb 11th
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Random. I kinda like it:)
James: I want you to watch "not giving a fuck" it's made by Jon Lajolie
Me: Why? just cause it's funny or because you want to teach me a lesson on not giving a fuck?
James: Both.
*i watch the video which mentions masturbating with stolen cheese*
Me: So.... are you trying to teach me that I should start masturbating with stolen cheese?
James: i love you
Feb 10th